Jun 6, 2023
35. Katie Stewart: 25 Years of Doubt and Confusion; Finally Finding Answers
Warning: This episode is explicit and is not suitable for children or those who are particularly sensitive to the topic of rape and the associated terminology. Please use discretion when listening to thie episode.
Rape trauma is an incredibly distressing experience that can have profound effects on a person's memory, emotional well-being, and overall sense of self. One of the common consequences of such trauma is memory loss, where survivors may struggle to remember specific details of the assault due to the brain's natural defense mechanism of dissociation. Bessel van der Kolk, a renowned trauma researcher and psychiatrist, has extensively studied the profound impact of trauma on individuals, including the severe consequences of rape trauma. His research has shed light on the phenomenon of memory loss in survivors of sexual assault, where the trauma can be so severe that it leads to a total loss of memory regarding the rape itself.
Such was the case of this week’s guest, Katie Stewart. Now in her 40’s, Katie was gang raped at age 19. The impact of that heinous act was so devastating to Katie, that for the next 25 years, Katie had only fragmentary memories of the summer events that happened after the rape, and intrusive flashbacks that made her question what really happened. Van der Kolk's research emphasizes that memory loss in rape survivors should not be interpreted as evidence of fabrication or falsehood. Instead, it highlights the complex and adaptive nature of the brain's response to trauma. The memory loss is a manifestation of the brain's attempt to shield the individual from the overwhelming pain and distress associated with the traumatic event. It was through counseling, for unrelated personal issues, that Katie started having flashback memories of the horrific experience she suffered. This, in turn, led to her eventual piecing together some of the puzzle that she is now working through to discover healing and a new perspective on life.
Understanding the mechanisms behind memory loss in rape trauma is crucial for validating survivors' experiences and dispelling misconceptions. Van der Kolk's research contributes to a broader understanding of the psychological impact of sexual assault and underscores the need for trauma-informed approaches to support survivors, like Katie, in their healing journey. By recognizing the complexity of trauma and memory, we can foster empathy, provide appropriate care, and empower survivors like Katie to reclaim their lives. And this story is a prime example of why we should all Start by Believing.
Give Katie's episode your close attention; it may have keys to unlocking some of your questions about the devastation of rape and sexual assault.
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